I recently wrote the post Doing it wrong here. It had not been shared yet, as it was scheduled behind several other posts that I've already written before. So the text had not been shared yet, when I got to Mastodon one day, and someone bluntly told me that I was doing it wrong. It sounded very accusing, and it triggered all the old trauma bits with me... I ended up just blocking them, as I don't need that kind of abuse. Fortunately, some very sweet friends sent me very nice and supportive messages. But still, the one nasty remark triggered loads in me, and I had a rubbish night with bad nightmares. ? I don't understand why strangers have this much power over me. Even when I know I was trying to do the right thing... […]

I recently wrote the post
Doing it wrong here. It had not been shared yet, as it was scheduled behind several other posts that I’ve already written before. So the text had not been shared yet, when I got to Mastodon one day, and someone bluntly told me that I was doing it wrong. It sounded very accusing, and it triggered all the old trauma bits with me… I ended up just blocking them, as I don’t need that kind of abuse.
Fortunately, some very sweet friends sent me very nice and supportive messages. But still, the one nasty remark triggered loads in me, and I had a rubbish night with bad nightmares. ? I don’t understand why strangers have this much power over me. Even when I know I was trying to do the right thing…
https://flic.kr/p/2qVK2z1This is the Toot that threw me off. Some background, I was very tired when I read it and I had a huge headache. I just wanted to relax a bit with Masto and this Toot just ruined it for me.
I kept the info of the person anonymous, as I am not the bad person they want me to believe that I am… While I would love to shame them publicly for the way they behaved, I believe to be the better person here… Or at least I try to be…
Since I’ve learned how important alt text is, I’ve been trying to use it more and more. But I quickly realized that describing an image was not my strong point. So when I learned that AI could help me with this I started using it for that. I usually try to read the text the AI made and I’ll edit it for the best results.
When I wrote the original Toot, I wanted to see if alt bot ? could work with animated images. I was walking with two dogs at that moment, so using the phone was a bit harder. When the bot gave me a description, it was a long one! I struggled with reading it, so I was unable to check and edit at that moment. For with I apologized. And that was what triggered the unkind response. The one time I didn’t edit it, and even apologized for that! ?
https://flic.kr/p/2qVDs97The media post shows that it’s been edited. That’s only when I added the alt text from the bot, and my apologies about not being able to edit it. I didn’t change anything after I’ve received the nasty comment, so there is nothing that has been changed to “suit the story better”, as so often happens these days…
I know people are against AI for many reasons. And I can understand it! But I have limited spoons. I struggle with my attention/concentration. I can hyperfocus too much, and then I lose the perspective on the rest that’s in plain view.
I also know AI makes mistakes! Some are rather funny… One time Arwen for mistaken for a boar ? in a nightly shot I made of her, strolling through a field. That gave me a giggle! But… When AI made me an alt text, I’ll always try to read it and then edit it before sharing it with the image.
I could not do so with this one image. I felt bad about it. So I apologized. And then I got roasted because I wasn’t being supportive and taking it seriously, because I was using AI to help me.
I try to add proper alt texts to all my images! How is that not inclusive? How of that not trying to make my images accessible to all? I have my own challenges, but I still try to do my best. And I get roasted for needing help with something that would make my images more inclusive to everyone.
It made me wonder if that person checks
all the alt texts, and dismisses all the “bad ones they don’t like”. I mean, many people don’t even use alt texts! Is this person Tooting them all for not being inclusive? Some people have alt texts that just say “cartoon image” or “black cat”. Does this person Toot them for not really explaining what is visible in the image? ? Probably not…
They were annoyed with AI, and they happened to find my Toot, and even my sorry didn’t mean sh*t to them. They wanted to nitpick and as bullies do, they knew I was the right one to pick on…
Because this was just typical bully behavior! I try to accommodate to people with their disability the best I can. And they respond with me not doing it well enough for their liking. Doesn’t matter if I have a disability as well, nope… I should cater to their needs in a way they seem fit. And they don’t care about my struggles and my reasons for using AI. They don’t care for me feeling bad for not being able to check and adjust it this time. Nope! It’s bad that I use AI to begin with, because it means I don’t take it seriously…
Why would I take the effort to use alt bot ?, why would I read and exit their replies, and then edit into my original Toot, if I didn’t take it seriously?
And the worst of this bully hit me where I am mksy vulnerable… It made me question myself, as you can see in this post. And it triggered last trauma, even giving me nightmares that following night! ?
To them, it was just another bullying remark. To me, it was painful, making me doubt, and opening old wounds… So you see, even if you try to do your best, even if you want to do the best that your circumstances allow you, there’s always someone to make you feel horrible… ?
And I was just trying to
add more alt texts to my images, both here on the blog, and with my images on Flickr… I’ll keep doing that, and I’ll keep using AI to help me to write the best texts. Because I just know that there are folks out there that do appreciate the efforts! ?
Ah well… I wanted so send a big thank you to all the folks that sent me kind and supportive messages after I felt so bad with that unkind one… ? ? ?
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